Thursday, July 8, 2010

Acceptance that I am not perfect

I know I am not perfect. I am not the perfect wife, I am not the perfect mother, I am not the perfect teacher. I have had a few people in my life remind me how I am not perfect. Life is not perfect. It is not simple. I hope that my children grow up happy and healthy and not too scarred. My biggest guilt right now is knowing that some people that deserve to be parents do not have the chance or have lost the chance because of terrible circumstances. I know that I have to deal with potty training yet again. I have to deal with a child who is suffering from terrible mood swings because of ADHD. I wouldn't trade it for the world, I am lucky to have beautiful children that are sweet, imaginative and fun. Yes there are many days that I feel like pulling my hair out, but I have been reminded that every moment in life is precious. Life is too short to regret anything. Again, I am not perfect and I do not pretend to be perfect. When you are a parent you can not expect to be perfect. I am happy to know that I do expect a lot from my children as far as behavior and such, but in the end I have to be accepting that they are not ALWAYS going to be perfect. It drives others crazy! I want them to strive to be their best just as my parents expected from me, but I am thankful that they never expected me to be perfect. As hard as I try I know that will never be the case. Life is messy, life is not perfect. I want to enjoy every moment with my family perfect or not perfect. There are many things I wish I could change in my life but for now I am happy being not quite perfect.

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